Thursday, November 27, 2008

My Un-Thanksgiving...

I wrote last week about how I'm struggling with gratitude. I've decided I just can't do it. I can't feel grateful. I think feeling gratitude requires a level of humility I just cannot muster this year. And I don't feel humble. I feel bitter. So I'm not celebrating Thanksgiving today. Because as many things as there are in my life to be thankful for, the one thing, the one person who is most important, is not here. Not having Ezra here overshadows everything.

My dad came home from the hospital today, and that's a HUGE thing to be thankful for. So I renamed today 'Thanksfordaddy day' and I'm leaving it at that. Its all I can handle.

4 comments:

Hope's Mama said...

And that's enough for now Sarah. That's enough. I just hope like crazy that 2009 brings us all something to be thankful for. Siblings for our missing little darlings xo

Rach said...

Like Hope's Mama said 'that's enough for now.' I am pleased you father is doing well.

We don't celebrate thanksgiving in Australia, which is good (this year anyway).

Take care. x

Adina B said...

I'm thinking of you Sarah. And David. Glad your dad is home and doing better.

Monique said...

I'm grateful for you! You rock.
Extra virtual hugs.