Thursday, December 10, 2009

34 weeks, 4 days ~ No News...

There's not much to report around here. Which is actually good in the scheme of things. Still pregnant, still anxious. Bedrest seems to be working, to the extent that my blood pressure continues to waiver between normal and high normal, but not going any higher. Protein levels remain normal. Sunflower is growing big and strong. But I can hardly relax...pre-eclampsia can suddenly escalate at any time, which is why the daily monitoring at home and the three times weekly doctor's appointments are so important. I am doing my best to stay present in the positive, to trust in what is to come. But it's a strangely liminal place to be, when I don't know if I'm going to be pregnant for one more day, week or month. I'd really like to fastforward to the part when I'm finally home with Sunflower in my arms.

19 comments:

Michele said...

It can rear its ugly head but right now, it is down in the dumps and for that, YAY!!! So glad!!!!

Sending positive vibes. Let me know if you need anything- I've got frozen casseroles ready to go at a moment's notice! :)

niobe said...

How incredibly stressful. Thinking of you.

Sara said...

Wish you could fast forward to there . . . I hope this anxious time will be over for you soon.

Sophie said...

Yeah I don't blame you. I wanted to sleep until it was all over too. I can't wait to celebrate with you soon, the safe arrival of Sunflower.
xx

Barbara said...

Thinking of you Sarah.

Sending healthy relaxing vibes your way!

xxx

erica said...

Thinking of you. I'm glad things are going well so far and have my fingers crossed that they continue to do so.

TracyOC said...

How I wish this could be less stressful for you.

Praying for a safe delivery for you and Sunflower.

Paige said...

Ditto to so much of what you feel and write and sending love and big hugs. xo

Hope's Mama said...

Thinking of you my lovely friend.
xo

Lani said...

yeah, this is a tough time indeed. just know i'm thinking of you every second and sending so much healthy baby love.
xo

k@lakly said...

So glad they are wtching you so closely but can only imagine how zoo like your life must feel:)
I hope the time passes quicklly and that Sunflower is soon, but not too soon, tucked safely in your arms, right where he belongs.
xxoo

Funsize said...

I wish I had a fast forward button...or a snooze button I can hit for you until you get to wake up with a baby in your arms.

xo

Tash said...

I can understand your feelings. Makes due dates seem really ridiculous, which is why I'm kinda refusing (denying?) to claim my own.

Hang tough.

Gal aka SuperMommy said...

Can't wait to see those photos of you holding Sunflower in your arms at home. It will come. Keep trusting, keep seeing it in your mind and heart. Love you.

aliza said...

wishing we could all fast forward time. glad that things are stable and sunflower is growing big and strong...one day at a time.

sending you love and moments of relaxation
xoxo

Cara said...

Oh, you are one of the best at being present in your moment. Sunflower, stay snuggly inside your mama, growing and feeling her love. You will be in this world soon enough...

xoxo

Ya Chun said...

yay for no sign of pre-E.

here's hoping it stays that way! Hang in there!

CLC said...

hang in there. the last few weeks seem like an eternity. hope you are doing well.

Rach said...

Thinking of you. xxx