Wednesday, April 15, 2009

In an alternate universe....

I have an 8 month old. He got off the waiting list at our first choice day care today. They just called to tell me.

I told them that my son Ezra is dead.

I am wailing as if he died today.

24 comments:

Paige said...

Oh Sarah, I wish I could wrap my arms around you right now. Know that I'm crying with you and that I'm so, so sorry. I wish we lived in that alternate universe and that Ezra were cuddled up next to you. All my love to you today.

Emily said...

Oh, I am so sorry.

I got an email, not a phone call, and I just deleted it.

erica said...

I am so, so sorry, Sarah. It's so hard to be ambushed by something like this. Sending love.

Barbara said...

Oh Sarah, how cruel that you had to explain yet again...

I'm so sorry.

angie said...

Oh, Sarah, keeping thinking about you on this gloomy cruel day.

Sara said...

Sarah, I know how these things can just wipe you out. I'm so sorry. Thinking of you and Ezra today.
Hugs, Sara

Hope's Mama said...

Oh Sarah I am so sorry. I am half expecting a call like this myself. I hope the machine picks that one up, as that's a conversation I also don't want to have. Cry all your need Sarah, I'm always here for you.

Ya Chun said...

Ah what a sucker punch.

Our daycare preregistered you, then had a card you sent it at the baby's birth. Perhaps that could be suggested to more daycares...

Lea said...

You must be just drained. I am so sorry.... these cruel reminders (as if we need a reminder) seem to continue to be thrown at us.

Strength to you today.

Dani819 said...

I hate that this happened. But you already know that. Sending you love and hugs.

Ange said...

I am so sorry that you have to feel this pain. It can be so raw. Am thinking of you Ezra.

CLC said...

That's a sucker punch. Ouch, I am sorry.

Dalene said...

Ugh, that is just awful. I'm so, so sorry.

Kara aka Mother Henna said...

So very sorry, Sarah. I remember stuff like this. We got a phone call to come in for our "first free family portrait" at around the 6 months mark or something. Yep, I felt as if Kota had died again that very day. It sucks. I'm sorry we're all here in this alternate universe that still seems to painfully collide with that other alternate universe. Sending you good thought and lots of Reiki. Miracles, k-

Jill said...

Oh no. My heart is breaking for you. I am so so sorry

G$ said...

Oy, those gut punches are awful. I am so sorry.

Mrs. Spit said...

I'm sorry Sarah. That was the worst phone call I had to make, it took me 3 months to get my courage up.

Kathy and Joel said...

I am so desperately sorry.

Seraphim said...

Wishing I could give you a hug xxxx

wereyoulookingforme said...

Oh, what a terrible thing to have to deal with. I'm so sorry this happened. Sending you hugs.

Artblog said...

So sorry for you, HUGS.

I Believe in Miracles said...

Here from L&F.
I'm so sorry.
~~HUGS~~

Mirne said...

Oh I'm so sorry. This has happened to me twice. First for my daughter Freyja (who died when I was 28 weeks pregnant) and secondly with my son Kees (who died when he was 7 weeks old). It's the most awful thing that someone could contact you out of the blue and NOT KNOW that your beautiful baby is gone.

Rach said...

Shit.

Sorry, my sweet friend.

I got a whole series of stares yesterday, especially at my tummy and for a pram by some mum's at Minnie's gymnastics. They usually attend a different class and the last time I saw them, I was a few days away from having Alice. I really wanted to tell them what had happened but no-one asked...